So much has unfolded regarding the logistics and details of our journey that I have tended to forget the intentions, indeed the vows, that have energized my path. Finding our Tiny House on wheels, visiting family, and seeing the desert Southwest have been fun and engaging experiences, but this whirlwind of activity has left me a bit distant from that part of my heart that has been my guiding light in these transforming times.
Certain intentions formed a few months ago that eventually became vows. These guidelines by which I hope to live the rest of my life have faded in the melee. I share them with you here as a way of recalling myself to their gentle guidance at a time when I feel a bit at sea.
- I will spend the rest of my life living, to the best of my ability, in harmony with the Earth: living simply; taking “just enough” from the Earth so that my possessions and income do not detract from this harmony; and doing whatever I can to bring peace and healing to Her and to Her children.
(I have, to a great extent, forgotten this connection with the Earth as automobiles, people, houses, and electronic noise have been dominant for the past couple of weeks. I have felt the pressure of holiday season and the cultural imperative to buy and buy. I have refrained for the most part, but the milieu of commerce has been a depressing companion.)
- I will seek a spiritual connection of gratitude with all the elements of life: stone and soil; rain, river, and sea; plants of every kind; mountains, valleys and plains; air and wind; all flying, walking, and crawling beings. To support this I will live outside as much as possible, immersing myself in the natural world and learning from all its moods, seasons, and gifts.
(I have been able to take some lovely hikes and have spent a few moments with the moon and stars, but most of the time I have lived indoors.)
- I will cultivate my relationship with the Energies of the Cosmos – within and through my body; flowing between myself and other beings; with all the dancing and swirling forces throughout space and time. To support this I will join these energies through Qigong, drumming, dancing, and singing.
(I have neglected my Qigong for the past four weeks. I do sing as I hike and I have drummed a bit but the regular support of these practices has drifted away.)
- I will seek guidance from the Unseen Realms and from the Sacred Source in all of my activities through the day: in my writing, my talking, and my thinking so that my Soul – my being of Light within – will be the center from which I live and move. To support this I will seek to pay attention to all possible communications – dreams, synchronous happenings, the flow of emotions, and intuitions.
(I have slipped into habitual patterns of “going along” when my heart and soul have wanted to say, “No, not that.” I have reverted often to conditioned mental states and moods.)
I have reviewed these priorities, not to blame myself at all, but to recall my attention and my focus. We all lose focus, especially during holiday seasons when the culture exerts some of its most powerful weapons. All we need to do is take a breath, notice, and return. There is never a need for blame or shame in such recollections. The marvelous present moment is always available and the practices that support our life are always waiting for us. We can return to them and they will welcome us as if we’d never left.